How did I get so lucky to have such an amazing little girl? You are my life, my world, my heart.... I love you stinker bug.
Halle is going to be on bottles the rest of her life, its a fact. I will send her off to college with a cooler full of bottles. I really need to just stop and take them away, but when it comes down to it I just feel like I don't have the energy at night to let her cry or try to get her to just drink her milk from a sippy. I keep telling myself "k this weekend we'll say bye bye to the baba" but then the weekend comes and I just make excuses!! Man I want to "I am doing it tonight! I swear" but I know that 4 am will come and I will just pour the milk in the bottle and be lazy!!! So any advice would be helpful!! I went in today for my 20 week ultrasound, the placenta is still in a bad spot and we are hoping against hope that it starts moving but until then, its a bunch of follow up. Come on placenta!! Other than that in the wrong spot the baby is growing well, everything is developing well and the baby has all it's systems intact and is very healthy YAY!! And we were triple confirmed it was a girl. (I get nervous that something will grow and all I have is girl stuff!) Also I have a severe problem, i have so so so many little baby girl clothes but I want new ones for poptart! I keep having to stop myself from buying new things. the thing is I don't think I can hold out much longer!! TOO many cute clothes!! Well that's all for now!!
I wanted to update everyone on what has been going on, It has been a very hard week and I really appreciate everyone and their prayers and support. On Saturday Halle and I woke up and I went about my business getting us breakfast and taking the pooch out. Halle had a hay day with her breakfast so I put her in the bath and while she was in the bath I went potty (of course being prego any sound of water makes you want to pee your pants) so I looked down and I noticed (sorry kinda gross) a bunch of blood on my undies. So I hurry and called the on call dr and she told me to get to the ER right then. So I called Kevin and yanked Halle out of the bath and got her dressed while I was waiting for him to get there. I called my mom and told her to meet us at the ER so she could get Halle. I got there and they got me hooked up to an IV and heart monitor, my pulse was really high (shocking I knowDUH) and i was in a lot of pain so they gave me morphine and did an exam, the bleeding had stopped but I was still cramoing/contracting and so they got me to go get an ultrasound and found out that the baby is ok (Phew) but her amniotic fluid was low. We stayed in the ER while the Doctor came to talk to us about what could happen and all I remember is he just kept saying miscarriage and I was scared to death. After drugging me up (GO MORPHINE) they sent me home to rest and to contact the doctor on monday. So I spent most of sunday in bed sleeping and crying, and praying that poptart would be ok. I got two blessings and I really feel that made me calmer and able to deal with whatever was going to happen. After talking to my doctor on monday he put me on complete bedrest. I called tuesday cause I wanted to go get an ultrasound to make sure that she was ok. So we went in and she was great and my amniotic fluid seems to be replenishing and I am still contracting/cramping but everything seems to be doing better, i am off complete bedrest and I am supposed to be taking it easy so we'll see!! But as for right now things are looking up and I hope they continue to do so!
