hAlLeS fIRst MoVIe.....

Halle at her first movie "The Princess amd the Frog"

Halle went to her first movie last week. Disneys "The Princess and the Frog" She did pretty good, there was some parts that were kinda scary and she just pur her blanket over her eyes and then she was fine. She was dancing in her seat to the music and loves laughing at the frogs.

I cant believe I have a little girl that is old enought to go to a movie!! It is fun and she is getting so big. The movie was really good, not my favorite Disney movie (which is still Beauty and the Beast)

Our next movie we are looking forward to is the new "Toy Story"

mY sAnTa bAbIEs...

Halle and Kam Kam with Santa 2009

Halle and Kam went and saw Santa last week and they both did amazing! I tried to prep Halle about what would happen a couple days beforehand but she was still pretty nervous, as you can tell from her expression, Kam couldnt care less about him. Halle asked for a dollhouse and even gave santa a hug and kiss.

I love my girls so much!!

hAlLe'S DaNCe rEcItaL

Halle had her first dance recital and she did amazing!! I was so nervous because she does still get shy in class and will come sit on my lap but from the minute we walked in she was ready to dance in front of everyone... My baby is all about the attention. She really had a good time and was so happy to dance with Papa at the end.. We got it on video and she loves watching herself dance.

I am so happy that I have her in dance, its something she looks forward to everyweek and she gets to be around other girls her age and just be a girly girl!!

I aM tHanKfuL....

I have so much to be thankful for.....

My hubble bubble

I am so blessed to have a husban that knows me inside and out and can make me feel so special and amazing. He knows how to make me laugh and feel better instantly. He is an amazing daddy and provider and is so motivated and hard working.

My Halle Bug

She is my first born, my princess, my little mommy. She is so incredibly like her dad its ridiculous. She knows how to push my buttons and make me laugh. She is an amazing big sister and would do anything to make Kam Kam happy. She is a girly girl and loves to be my little shadow.

My lil Kam Kam

She is my miracle, my little stinker that can make my heart melt instantly, she is a mama's girl and will let everyone know it. She is a very serious baby but will laugh and give the biggest grins to those she loves. Every morning I get up to her she gives me the biggest smile and likes to talk to me about her night. She loves her sister and likes to watch her run around and play just waiting for the day that she can join her. She is love.

My Parents

I am so lucky to have these to people as my parents. I have put them through so much and they actually still love me for some reason and will support me in everything I do even if they know I am making a mistake. They let me learn from my failures and help me pick myself back up and put me back on the right path. They are amaing grandparents and Halle is so in love with her Papa, she is attached to him and loves him so much. Kamryn is in love with her nana and loves just being snuggled. She has a special gift in getting Kam Kam to fall asleep in her arms.

My In Laws

I am so blessed to have these people in my life. They are my second parents and havve always been there for me through all kevin and I have been through. They are wonderful grandparents and my girls love going to Nana's house. I admire their strong beliefs and spirituality. They are very faith driven and I love the example they set.

Being a stay at home Mama

I dont know where to start, staying home with my girls is the biggest blessing and I know that it has already been so amazing for my girls, Halle is so much better behaved and Kamryn just loves being with mommy. I love waking up with them everyday and putting them to sleep everynight. I love to see the changes they go through and helping them learn. I LOVE being a mom. I am so thankful for my husband in working so hard to give me the opportunity to stay home.

I have so much I am blessed with and so many people I am thankful for that I can not even begin to name everyone but you know who you are and I love all of my family and friends.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!

tRiCk oR TreAt

My lil Queen Bee

Every year just gets better and better on Halloween, Halle is getting the concept and was so excited about trick or treating, in fact the whole week before we had Max and Ruby's Halloween on continuous play. I overheard Halle in the bath about 2 days before practicing saying trick or treat while playing with her My Little Ponies.

It was nice weather but we did not get out trick or treating till it was almost dark and it got very very cold. Halle made it about half way around the block and was over it.

Halle: "Mama, I cold, Nana's house" Me: "You don't want to get more candy?" Halle "No, mama, I cold, Nana's house"

My flower and bumblebee

So we headed back to Nana's house and Halle got to play with her cousins (she is so in love with her cousin "Kennal" (Kendall), and had a good time being a mommy to her all night long.

Kamryn had a good time too, she was exhausted and went to sleep on Nana's bed after we got back.

The best part was getting them home and putting them both straight in their beds. Ahhh...

Dear Halloween,

you are my favorite holiday and you didn't let me down.

Can't wait for next year.

Love,

Me

a LiTtlE tAsTe oF tHe gIRlS pICs...

My Little Mess and her Crazy Hair!!

Sister Love

Halle and Bubba

Such Happy Girls!!

dO yOu eVeR hAvE tHoSe DayS???

I was having one of those days the other day where you feel like you are just not a good mama, no matter what you do your child cries and won't do what you say. They throw tantrums in the middle of stores and everyone looks at you like you are the worst person ever. When you feel like no matter how much you try you just can't get on top of things, too much laundry, dishes, bottles. But where do you draw the line and say "Ok I will leave it and play with my kids" I can't seem to find that balance between home, work, being a wife, being mother, being a homemaker. I feel like if I am strong and productive at work that my husband, kids, and house suffer, and if I am strong and productive at home than my work and career suffer. I hate mornings, having to leave my kids to come to work is like ripping my heart out, I hate when I come home and Halle would rather have Nana hold her then Mommy. I hate that I am missing out on so much of there lives and milestones. I have to sneak out of the house in the morning usually before Halle wakes up or else she runs after me and cries that she wants to come and says "No mama, no work peees" Most mornings I am fighting back the tears when I drop them off or leave my house because I just want to be a mommy and be home.

But I also feel guilty cause I sometimes need to get away and just be with Kevin or by myself. I just wish I could find a balance.

Don't get me wrong, I am so blessed that I do not have to bring my girls to daycare, that they get to stay with their grandma's that love them so much and that I trust to teach them and love them when I am not there. But jealousy kicks in and I get so envious of the things they get to experience with MY little girls. I can not believe how much they change everyday and I just count down the hours at work till I get to see their cute smiles and hear "Mommy's home!!" when I walk in the door.

I gotta just know that God has a plan for me and my family and right now I am doing what needs to be done at this point in my life.

Thanks for letting me vent.

XOXOXOXO

Anne