a LiTtlE tAsTe oF tHe gIRlS pICs...

My Little Mess and her Crazy Hair!!

Sister Love

Halle and Bubba

Such Happy Girls!!

dO yOu eVeR hAvE tHoSe DayS???

I was having one of those days the other day where you feel like you are just not a good mama, no matter what you do your child cries and won't do what you say. They throw tantrums in the middle of stores and everyone looks at you like you are the worst person ever. When you feel like no matter how much you try you just can't get on top of things, too much laundry, dishes, bottles. But where do you draw the line and say "Ok I will leave it and play with my kids" I can't seem to find that balance between home, work, being a wife, being mother, being a homemaker. I feel like if I am strong and productive at work that my husband, kids, and house suffer, and if I am strong and productive at home than my work and career suffer. I hate mornings, having to leave my kids to come to work is like ripping my heart out, I hate when I come home and Halle would rather have Nana hold her then Mommy. I hate that I am missing out on so much of there lives and milestones. I have to sneak out of the house in the morning usually before Halle wakes up or else she runs after me and cries that she wants to come and says "No mama, no work peees" Most mornings I am fighting back the tears when I drop them off or leave my house because I just want to be a mommy and be home.

But I also feel guilty cause I sometimes need to get away and just be with Kevin or by myself. I just wish I could find a balance.

Don't get me wrong, I am so blessed that I do not have to bring my girls to daycare, that they get to stay with their grandma's that love them so much and that I trust to teach them and love them when I am not there. But jealousy kicks in and I get so envious of the things they get to experience with MY little girls. I can not believe how much they change everyday and I just count down the hours at work till I get to see their cute smiles and hear "Mommy's home!!" when I walk in the door.

I gotta just know that God has a plan for me and my family and right now I am doing what needs to be done at this point in my life.

Thanks for letting me vent.

XOXOXOXO

Anne

dAy aT tHe PaRK.....

Kevin and I were driving around a couple weeks ago trying to find somewhere to take the girls to play, well we stumbled on this park in Riverton called Old Farm Park and Halle loved it, her and Daddy played while Kam and Mama watched. It is so amazing to look at these two little girls and think that they are mine, I am not always the most patient or the best mommy in the world but these lil stinkers make me feel so loves and needed. I am so blessed with a husband who is the best daddy, he would do anything to just see his princesses smile. I don't know how I got so lucky but I am.

YUM!!!!

Miss Kamryn LOVES her food......

I LOVE this lil girl to the moon and back, she is the best baby.

sErIoUslY....wHeRe Did mY tINy bAbY gO?

Halle and Bubba

Our Kam Kam is trying to grow up WAY too fast!! I brought her into the doctor on Thursday and our little chunk has gained another pound and 6 ounces, she is up to 13lbs 7oz!! I brought her to the doctor because I thought she was sick with an ear infection because she has been weird about taking her bottle. Well her ears are fine but apparantly she is teething!! That didn't even register to me because Halle didn't till she was like 10 months, I have come to realize that the only thing that Halle and Kamryn have in common is that they have the same parents. They are so complete opposites, Halle always hated solids and Kamryn absolutley loves them and is not even interested her bottles, she wants the real stuff. Kam Kam sleeps through the nights and rarely cries, Halle liked to stay up and crying was just what she did. I just love having our two girls who are both so different but so amazing. I totally feel like Halle is Kevin in her personality and traits, and Kamryn is so me.

Halle is doing so good in her dance class, she does all the dances EXCEPT the cheerleader, she won't put on the costume or take the pom pom's. So Weird

Kamryn is cooing and smiles ALL the time, she is a mama's girl.

I am planning on taking the girls up the canyon to take the pics and I also wanna go to the pumpkin patch so I will post all about that next week.